the wolves inside..

One evening an old Cherokee told his grandson about a battle that goes on inside people.

He said, "My son, the battle is between two wolves inside us all.

One is Evil. It is anger, envy, jealousy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, and ego.

The other is Good. It is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion and faith."

The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather: "Which wolf wins?"

The old Cherokee simply replied, "The one you feed."

a stranger that i first was, a stranger again i hope i wont be.

It feels like she is slowly becoming further away from me..
it feels like i am slowly being moved further away that i can only see what's going on in her life from afar...

A stranger to her that i first was,
a stranger again that i hope i wont be.


You say you wander your own land
But when I think about it
I don't see how you can
You're aching, you're breaking
And I can see the pain in your eyes
Says everybody's changing
And I don't know why

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same

You're gone from here
And soon you will disappear
Fading into beautiful light
Cause everybody's changing
And I don't feel right

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same

keane-everybody's changing

first ride

it was my frst time going to a carboot sale..

n i bought myself a used bike fr 60 pound..

i had to cycle all way back to my home for about 45 minutes through places n roads that are totally strange to me of which ive never came acrosss before, hoping that i wont get lost along the way.

it was fun,
it was my first ride in bristol.

Its easy to forget Him,

its allways great to meet people of different background..

i went to multifaith chaplaincy centre, and meet lots of muslim communities in bristol

and ive got to know sakeeb and shehzad, who are now in their second year of aeronautical engineering.

"you've got to have strong heart brother

and you always have to remember Allah, coz its easy to forget him.."

above of which sakeeb said to me,
keep hanging aroung in my head till this morning..
its easy to forget Him..and yes it is...for me..

last night at a shelter called home

....
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so, my last nite at home has at last, begun.

its another journey that i would sail upon, another phase that i myself doubt whether i can hold strong or not.

Its been a good day today, a very good one. Went out with my classmates, khatib, ainor, syazila. Got to go to many places. Somehow I realise that, some friends will just pass you by in your life, only few would stay, until the very last moment in your life, be with you from th day they know you, till the day you change and grow up bits by bits, and share memories with you pieces by pieces, until somehow that pieces turn into a beautiful puzzle of your own life, that you just cant help but to be mesmerized of it evrytime it appears in ur mind.
and i cant help but to smile on driving back home, pondering on how meaningful my friends are to me.

And Ive got my first compound, of not putting up a parking coupon. Oh my, its pontian for heaven's sake, since when does it need a parking coupon..?

I would surely miss my home, my family,
and I would surely miss her. I definitely would, much more than how i feel tonite.

Life keep changing, and so does everyone, and its the uncertainties of the future that creates the beauty of how to feel the feeling of hope ,dream, and even fear.

And that's it,
the pieces that Ive had today, of my life's own puzzle.

a tribute to someone important..

The sky has lost it's color
The sun has turned to grey
At least that's how it feels to me
Whenever you're away
I crawl up in the corner
As I watch the minutes pass
Each one brings me closer to
The time you're comin' back

I can't take the distance
I can't take the miles
I can't take the time until I next see you smile
I can't take the distance
And I'm not ashamed
That with every breath I take I'm callin your name

But I can't take the distance

I still believe my feelings
But sometimes I feel too much
I make believe you're close to me
But it ain't close enough
Not nearly close enough

I can't take the distance
I can't take the miles
I can't take the time until I next see you smile
I can't take the distance
And I'm not ashamed
That with every breath I take I'm callin your name

I brave fire and I brave rain
To be by your side I'd do anything
I can't take the distance

I will go the distance
I will go the miles
That's how much you mean to me

'Cause I can't take the distance
I can't take these miles
I can't take the time until I next see you smile
I can't take the distance
And I'm not ashamed
That with every breath I take I'm calling your name
I can't take the distance

It's hard to remember
As long as you're away
When I find solace
There's only one way

evan and jaron - the distance

Thank you sensei..

I only have few teachers in my life.

I ve been playing badminton in my nearby hall quite often nowadays.

And Ive got to know these two worthy friends which always encourage me on how to improve my game, and the way i play. Always tirelessly teaching me many aspects in the game that i am lack about. Always be patient to just have some strokes and dropshots with me, so that i get my steps and hit the shuttle right. And consider me their friend, despite the obvious age difference.

I just want to acknowledge my gratitude to them.

I just want to express how thankful I am.

And for sure Im gonna miss them once im off, out of my homeland.

Thank you, abg anwar.

Thank you, abg man.